Monday, December 27, 2010

2010, you can leave now

With 2010 coming to an end, I have been so busy with who knows what to even blog. I've been so busy, I was wrapping presents right before we left the house to go to our families houses. Ugh, what a horrible blogger I've been lately.
But what I'm excited about is for 2011. Not for anything in particular really, but mostly for 2010 to be gone. 2010 hasn't been fun. If you've been reading my blog you know what I'm talking about. Obviously the miscarriages have been the main events of this year. I rang in 2010 physically having a miscarriage. I wasn't out partying, yelling Happy New Year to everyone, or even working like I do on some New Years. I was living out the first of many nightmares. So needless to say, I'm welcoming 2011 with open arms!
2010 did provide us with a few positives I suppose. Justin and I took two great trips to Washington D.C. and to Kansas, where my family is. We became a foster home for doggies and that has enabled us to help the local animals in need. That in itself has brought me so much joy, along with the doggies of my own.
All in all 2010 was a memorable year. It brought about the worst in me and also showed me how much strength I have in me. It showed me how unfair life can be, and that I am not in control. Oh how hard it was to give up that control I thought I had!
 I've said this before and I'll say it again. I don't regret one thing I've been through. Doesn't make it any less easier or less hurtful. I truly believe every experience I have shapes me into exactly the person I'm supposed to be. Sometimes the person looking back at me in the mirror is someone I'm ashamed of. The bitter, resentful, angry person is not always nice to look at, but I'm human. And I will wear those faces at times. But the other times, well, those faces I'm proud of. The grown up, more compassionate, loving, self aware me.
I've kept this quote near and dear to my heart for quite some time now. And I love it more every day I read it...

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." 
-Marilyn Monroe

Happy Monday,



Bobbi Janay said...

I feel you on 2010 leaving, can't wait for 2011. We will be celebrating with good friends this year ring in a new marriage and anew year.

Mary C. said...

Hello. I found you on months ago and just haven't commented until now. A good friend of mine started fostering dogs this year, and said it is a very rewarding experience. Anyway, I completely get that you are ready for 2010 to be over, and I am hoping that you have a very positive and blessed 2011.

Erin said...

Elise, the quote brought tears to my eyes - especially:
" things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
You are always in my thoughts! 2011 will be your year! I can feel it :)